Thursday, December 31, 2015

A Look Back...

Monday, December 31, 2012

A Look Back....


      As 2012 comes to a close, it is a time for reflection.  As a cancer patient, you may be riddled with thoughts of the past few months or years and wonder what the future holds.  I've spoken with many survivors who suffer from "anniversary" post traumatic stress syndrome. I am one of them.  When certain months roll around, my mind plays tricks on me and "reminds" me of what took place during those times.  It is stressful, but it helps to know I'm not alone - misery loves company!
As you will read in my book, there were other events that took place around the time of my diagnosis.  When I look back, I honestly don't know how I survived those troubling times.  They say, "Time heals all wounds" and, in a way, it has.  Do I still have the monkey brain thoughts and emotions play out?  Yes, sometimes I do.  But.....
We are all survivors on our own paths with the commonality of cancer.  It won't be an easy road, but we have to keep forging ahead.  Hopefully someday we'll be able to look back and say, "WOW!  I've come a loooong way and look at me now!"  That is my wish for us all in 2013!
Sending you lots of love,  peace, strength and light!

Tuesday, December 29, 2015

A Tribute To Dr. Wayne Dyer...

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

LOVE this!

Dr. Wayne Dyer is my favorite motivator / friend in my head, and this is one of my favorite quotes from him.  As you know, he was diagnosed with Leukemia a few years ago but he has maintained his philosophy and positive outlook on life.  He holds true to his beliefs and it has gotten him through. 
 That is what I have chosen to do, too!

Friday, December 25, 2015

What Do I Wish?

My wish for you is a day filled with love and happiness!
Jodi & Rose ♥

Friday, December 18, 2015

Flashback Friday!

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

What an AWESOME Site!

Whenever I stumble upon a website that awes me, I have to share it with you! Take Them A Meal offers a plethora of ideas for how to help others and this link in particular really inspired me...ever wonder what to do for others in need? These ideas will assist you as a caregiver, neighbor or friend to those who may need it the most...please pass this on to others!


Friday, December 11, 2015

Flashback Friday!

Friday, October 19, 2012

It's In Your Hands ...

When dealing with a cancer diagnosis, you know first-hand that every day is like a poker game.  One day you may wake up feeling like you should fold, and the next day you want to up the ante.  So it goes with "normal" life as well, but, coupled with being ill, everything is magnified.

When I saw this saying, I knew it to be true.  Sure, we got a raw deal with cancer, but it is up to US to choose how we want to play our cards.  I've had plenty of solo pity parties on this journey, but I try my best to keep the faith and remain an active player.  (An active player in a poker game is someone who has not yet folded his / her hand.) If you intend to remain active in the hand, be sure to protect your cards.  In the end, you will come out a winner, too!

Friday, December 4, 2015

Flashback Friday!

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Strength and Support -

Where does one gather the strength they need to deal with a cancer diagnosis? After the initial shock, I did extensive internet research. I wanted to see what treatment options I had. I made calls to The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society as well as the American Cancer Society - they were so helpful. To this day, I've said that when I win the lottery, I'm going to give both organizations a BIG gift. If you need any assistance, please check out their websites, as well as the others that I've listed on the right side of this blog under the heading, Fav Sites. It's better to be well-informed, than floundering like a helpless soul. You have to become your own health advocate ... no one else will do it for you. And, if I can offer a few words of advice (that I learned the hard way) let go of being proud. When friends or family offer to drive you to doctor's visits, etc., take them up on their offers. I struggled for the first few months on my own because I was too proud to accept their support. I thought that I could do it all on my own. It wasn't until I was truly run down that I began to let others help me. What I discovered is this - not only are YOU struggling to stay alive, your friends are struggling to deal with seeing their friend suffer. If they offer to help, let them! You'll feel the love that they have to give, and they'll know that they are assisting you. Life is a balance of give and take. You'll soon discover that sometimes it's good to be on the receiving end.

Wednesday, December 2, 2015

Sunday, November 29, 2015

Tibetan Healing Sounds - Tibetan bowls for meditation, relaxation

On this blessed Sunday, set aside some time for mediation, prayer and quiet contemplation while listening to these soothing Tibetan singing bowls.

Peace & Love to YOU!

Friday, November 27, 2015

A Living La Vida Lymphoma Flashback!

Saturday, December 1, 2012

Love Your Body...

This whole cancer thing threw me for a loop.  Not only was I dealing with the "normal" day-to-day illness, feelings, worries that accompany it, I saw the toll the cancer meds had taken on my body.  I used to think I was kinda cute-ish!  Suddenly, I didn't recognize the person staring back at me in the mirror.  My body betrayed me.  I experienced a true identity crisis.  Add my divorce after 24 years of marriage to the mix and I was really at a low point.  My broken heart matched my exterior.  I avoided cameras and used to get mad at Kathleen for insisting on taking my pictures during holidays.  They only confirmed how I felt inside.

Then, as I started to wean off of one of my treatment meds, I slowly began to see glimpses of the "old me."  A few months ago, I went to lunch with my photographer friend, Jackie.  Halfway through the meal, she excused herself and returned to the table with her camera and lenses.  She saw a "light" in me that I could not see.  She snapped photo after photo and I loosened up and allowed myself to pose ... to be funny ... to try to re-discover myself.  Jackie gave me such a wonderful gift and I am forever grateful for her love and friendship.  My profile picture on this blog was done on that day and she is going to take my picture again for the "Author" page on my book.  Thank you so much, Jackie for helping me to love and embrace myself again!  (And, thanks to Kathleen for documenting the yucky pictures that I can now add to my book!)
Please go to Jackie's website to see her works of art ...http:/
She is one amazing woman!

Thursday, November 26, 2015

Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving to you and your family!

Wishing you and yours a happy day.  
Take time to count your blessings - I am counting mine!

Friday, November 20, 2015

A Living La Vida Lymphoma Flashback!

Saturday, September 15, 2012

A GREAT website, & an even GREATER woman!

When I began research on SPTCL, I came across a website that was AMAZING! Trisha Torrey was misdiagnosed with SPTCL in 2004. This spurred her on to become not only a patient health advocate, she is an author, writer and speaker and I want to be like her when I grow up! Check out her site and you'll be inspired ... thanks so much, Trisha for all that you do! 

Thursday, November 19, 2015

Throwback Thursday - Can There Be Love After A Diagnosis?

Friday, April 5, 2013

Can There Be Love After A Diagnosis?

As many of you know by now, I was divorced after twenty four years of marriage - a little over a month after my diagnosis.  I honestly thought my chances of finding love again after Lymphoma was impossible.  Would someone want to take a chance on me?  I miss being in love.  Being alone is suddenly not an option for me.  I am the last of the great romantics.  I want to find someone who will sweep me off my feet and who will make our first date become our happy ending.  Kathleen has nicknamed me Pollyanna, but I am hopeful!

Just recently, I saw the following article in the Huffington Post.  It is a heart-warming story and makes me wonder if there IS someone out there for me???

Have any of you found love after your diagnosis?  If so, I'd love to hear all about it!  Please leave your comments below...give us all some hope for the future!


Friday, November 13, 2015

A Living La Vida Lymphoma Flashback!

Sunday, September 23, 2012

There's No Place Like Home ...

I have to admit, I am one strong woman! Diagnosed with lymphoma the end of October 2009, I filed for divorce seven days later, divorced the first week in December and then I made the move to my little pink cottage in July of 2010. I brought the bare minimum with me. Simplified my life. I'm a full-fledged Writer. And I've NEVER been happier! The old me would've never had the nerve to throw caution to the wind and do this. Cancer put everything into perspective. Although I have the urge to travel, finances prevent me from doing so right now. But, I also love my cottage (my landlord's cottage!), my freedom and my new life. There's nothing like curling up with a good book on the chaise in my sunporch. Or sitting at my desk, working on this blog and my manuscripts with the sunlight streaming through the lacy curtains. Or cuddling in bed with Rose. There IS no place like home ...
Here's Rose - sunning herself on the chaise like the Diva that she is!

Tuesday, November 10, 2015

The Best Things In Life

Often times when you're stressed to your very core, tied up in your cancer journey - 
a never ending schedule of doctor's appointments, lab tests, scans, and your "new reality" of facing this challenge, you must try to remember how to 

You were put on this planet for a reason.
You're that one-of-a-kind special someone who others love and cherish and are praying for that same miracle of perfect health that YOU are! Never let go of your dreams, Beloved! Your dreams are what will catapult you back into health.

There will be brighter days ahead and you will one day look back on the struggle and be able to see the strength and courage that you may have never thought you had!

Monday, November 9, 2015

Here's an interesting article....

I am not a medical professional, but when I read of new breakthroughs, I like to pass them on to my followers. SPTCL is an incurable form of Lymphoma and there are hundreds of sub-types,  so the fact that immunotherapy may be the key to finding a cure really piqued my interest....this would be such a blessing if, indeed, it works!

Just Let It Go, Baby!

Friday, November 6, 2015

A Living La Vida Lymphoma Flashback!

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Hang In There!

When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place. ~

Thursday, November 5, 2015

Throwback Thursday - An Excerpt From Living La Vida Lymphoma

Friday, October 15

Life's Rollercoaster

"Faith is the daring of the soul to go farther than it can see." -- William Newton Clarke

Whew! What a month! Many challenges with my health and, at one point, one of my new doctors told me that I may have Lupus Paniculitis rather than what I was originally diagnosed with. I was sent for another battery of tests. I can laugh about it now, but I sat there, my mind computing, "Lupus VS Lymphoma" and thinking that Lupus was the far better diagnosis, but, as luck would have it, all the tests were negative and the Lymphoma is here to stay. Darn! So, now the plan is to stay on my current drug treatment and they have typed my blood to get a possible donor match in the National Bone Marrow Registry, should a transplant become necessary. Hopefully it won't get to that point.
I am back to living my life in the most positive manner as possible. What else can I do, right?

Affirmation:  I am strong.

Sunday, November 1, 2015

Dating After Cancer - Highly Evolved Human - The Date

The topic of how to get back into the dating scene apres cancer is one that I find hard to deal with. I recently connected with someone on a dating website, we talked on the phone off and on for about a week, set a date and then when I re-checked his profile I discovered that he had added a P.S. that read, "If you have a crazy ex or have mental or  serious health issues, then I am not the one." WTF??? I had never discussed anything about my past relationships, let alone told him about my cancer challenge. So, if things weren't awkward BEFORE our first date with me worrying about when it would be the "proper time" to discuss the topic, like Nick Ross and millions of other cancer survivors, things got REAL fast!

He called me the day before our date and I said that there wouldn't be a date, and mentioned how I noticed the new "clause" that he had added to his profile...told him I was a cancer survivor and he said, "Oh, that's okay," to which I replied, "I'm afraid it's not. If you truly feel so strongly about this, then I totally understand and I don't hold anything against you. It was great getting to know you and I wish you the best in finding your Ms. Right."

Was I hurt? Did those old feelings of not being able to find someone who would love me unconditionally resurface? YUP! For a whole week, I truly felt "normal" and "wanted" again. But, the icing on the cake of my day? He blurted out, "Ya know what? I think they have dating websites for people who have serious health issues." 

I guess I'll just wait patiently for my Prince to come...someone who will be blown away by my strength and courage and inner beauty. Someone who is willing to take a "risk," after all, no one knows when it's their time to go. One major thing I learned on my journey is that life is so precious and each and every day is a blessing. 
I know that Mr. Right is out there. 
Just not on one of those dating sites...

If any of my followers would like to voice their opinions or share personal stories of dating after cancer, please leave a comment - I would love to hear your thoughts! Thanks!

P.S.- Thank you so much, Nick Ross for sharing your dating experiences with those of us who are in the same boat! ☺