Monday, December 31, 2012

A Look Back....


      As 2012 comes to a close, it is a time for reflection.  As a cancer patient, you may be riddled with thoughts of the past few months or years and wonder what the future holds.  I've spoken with many survivors who suffer from "anniversary" post traumatic stress syndrome. I am one of them.  When certain months roll around, my mind plays tricks on me and "reminds" me of what took place during those times.  It is stressful, but it helps to know I'm not alone - misery loves company!
As you will read in my book, there were other events that took place around the time of my diagnosis.  When I look back, I honestly don't know how I survived those troubling times.  They say, "Time heals all wounds" and, in a way, it has.  Do I still have the monkey brain thoughts and emotions play out?  Yes, sometimes I do.  But.....
We are all survivors on our own paths with the commonality of cancer.  It won't be an easy road, but we have to keep forging ahead.  Hopefully someday we'll be able to look back and say, "WOW!  I've come a loooong way and look at me now!"  That is my wish for us all in 2013!
Sending you lots of love,  peace, strength and light!

Sunday, December 30, 2012

Sleep? Who needs sleep?

One of my treatment meds is Prednisone.  I've been on it since August 2009.  It has caused me to have MAJOR insomnia ever since.  Most mornings I am up between 3-5 a.m. without the alarm and I am plagued with restless sleep all night.  Although I am sleep deprived, I am still Little Miss Sunshine as soon as I rise!  I hope that someday I will be able to sleep in like a "normal" person if I want to!
Any other insomniacs out there??? If so, what do you do to try to alleviate it? 

Saturday, December 29, 2012

Experience Life -

 We gain strength and courage and  confidence by each experience in which we really stop to look fear in the face ... we must do that which we think we cannot. ~ Eleanor Rossevelt

Friday, December 28, 2012

Comments, Please! I want to know...

What are your goals, hopes and dreams for 2013?


My friends are the BEST a girl could ever ask for!  I would've never made it through this far without their love and support and I want to say,

Thursday, December 27, 2012

Deepak Chopra : Physical Healing, Emotional Wellbeing

Deepak is another one of my favorite authors / lecturers.  Listen to his message and take it all in!

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Yule Log

Merry Christmas!  A day filled with joy and love and peace ... that is my wish for you! Enjoy!

Sunday, December 23, 2012

I Hate Christmas Cookies

I TOTALLY agree with this! Being an early childhood educator turned me into a
bit of a germ-a-phobe!

Friday, December 21, 2012

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

LOVE this!

Dr. Wayne Dyer is my favorite motivator / friend in my head, and this is one of my favorite quotes from him.  As you know, he was diagnosed with Leukemia a few years ago but he has maintained his philosophy and positive outlook on life.  He holds true to his beliefs and it has gotten him through. 
 That is what I have chosen to do, too!

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Monday, December 17, 2012

Courage ...

No one taught us how to be cancer patients or how to live with pain, weakness, fatigue.  There may be days when you don't feel like being "courageous."  There were times when I found myself feeling "guilty" for not being able to carry on the routines of the daily life that I once knew.  Guilty?  For what?  I was no longer in control of my body and I had to learn how to listen to it's subtle to demanding cues.  Each day brings forth another chance to begin again.  Don't be harsh on yourself.  Now is the time to allow your body, mind and spirit to heal - there's always tomorrow, beloveds!

Sunday, December 16, 2012

Another Fav Charity of Mine is ...

They provide hairpieces for children who have lost their hair due to a medical condition called alopecia areata.  Please click on the link to their website to learn how you can help:
I have donated my hair several times.  This is such an awesome organization!
Here was my hair donation from 2011!

Saturday, December 15, 2012

Friday, December 14, 2012

Be inspired ...

Do you have a dream?  Don't let your diagnosis stop you from being inspired and following your dreams.

If you can't think of a specific goal right now, take time to meditate and pray and listen to what Spirit is telling you.

You can do anything you set your mind to - I am living proof of that.  Cancer has made me realize what I need to do to lead the authentic life I was meant to live.  I am a blogger and a writer and I'm making my dreams come true. 

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

A Shout Out!

I want to give a humongous thank you and hug to Liz, moderator of  Hope For Lymphoma for allowing me to get the word out about T-cell Lymphoma yesterday!  And, thanks to all who welcomed me and participated throughout the day!  YOU inspire me!!!
M-M-M-W-W-W-A-A-A-A!!!  Thanks for everything!

All I want For Christmas...

Saw this and laughed my arse off!  Now if only Santa COULD get it right!  (Wishful thinking!)
Enjoy your day!

Tuesday, December 11, 2012


I am so honored to be the Guest Editor today on Hope For Lymphoma's FaceBook page! 
Here's their link:
Hope For Lymphoma offers a wealth of information and resources to others.
Please follow me throughout the rest-of-the-day and into the night!
The love is there....

Calm Yourself...

In the craziness leading up to the holidays, it is so important to take time to sit and "be."  After my many life changes from the past few years, I have shifted my thinking and way of doing things.

In my "old" life, I thrived on the chaos of the holiday season.  My brother, Bobby and I and our friends would get up before dawn to head out on Black Friday for all of the sales.  Back then, it was who I was.  I got sucked into the hunt for the bargains! 

When my brother passed away in 2002, he took with him my zest for shopping sprees.  I forced myself to go that year and realized why they call it Black Friday.  I went to a big department store in search of a special Bat Mobile my nephew wanted.  A huge crowd had assembled in the toy department and we were told by the store clerks that the Bat Mobiles were in the storage room waiting to be brought out. I stood there with the rest of the people for at least a half hour.  Despite the wait, I remained calm and smiled at whoever looked my way.  I chatted with a sweet eighteen year old college student who was there to buy her little brother's present.  People began to grumble and voice their "opinions" and the vibes in the toy department changed.  Suddenly, the sales clerks wheeled out two pallets filled with Bat Mobiles and then it got U-G-L-Y!!!  The crowd turned into an angry mob and rushed all at once, practically knocking each other down.  I saw mothers hoarding armfuls of Bat Mobiles, on the verge of  beating each other up to get what they came for.  I just hung back and decided that I was not going to get caught up in that mess.  After the crowd moved on, if any Bat mobile's remained, THEN I would get one. 

The mob cleared and all the cars were gone.  I told myself that it was a lesson learned.  The thrill of the hunt was over and it would be my LAST Black Friday shopping experience.  Just as I started to push my cart away, someone tapped me on my shoulder.  It was the college student, who handed me a Bat Mobile!  She went "in for the kill" and wanted to get one for me, too because I had been so nice to her.  That, my dears, is what the holidays are all about.  Remaining calm in the midst of the hoopla and holding onto your ideals and morals and to remember the REAL "reason for the season."

So, with the days leading up to Christmas, take care of YOU!  Start a new holiday ritual and pamper yourself - afternoon tea - meditation or prayer - set aside time to read -  journal -  take a walk - soak in a hot bubble bath ... do whatever it takes to make your heart sing and give yourself permission to just BE!

Monday, December 10, 2012

Whatever ...!

Wouldn't it be nice to be able to look into a crystal ball to see what lies ahead?  Regardless of our circumstances, healthy or not, no one knows what the future holds.  Sooooo, dear ones, love like you've never loved, dance, laugh, travel - do whatever it takes to make your heart sing!  Life is too short!  Live it!

Sunday, December 9, 2012

Passing Through...

Have a restful Sunday ...
"With the new day comes new strength and new thoughts."
-- Eleanor Roosevelt

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Don't Give Up -

There are some of you out there who are struggling on a day-to-day basis with this thing called cancer.  It is not an easy road at times but I promise you this - just like any challenge in life, there WILL be brighter days.  It is hard to see a future when you are facing the biggest struggle of your life, but I want you to know, it WILL get better.  Just hang in there and know that you have someone here - me, your fellow readers, care-givers, supporters - we are united in the hopes and prayers for a better life for you. 
I am asking that anyone who is reading this right now, to please say a prayer for those who need to be swaddled in love today.  May they gain the strength and courage that they'll need to carry on in their journey and gain hope for the life that they are destined to live. 
Peace and love and light to you all~

Friday, December 7, 2012

Just Think!

Isn't this a great acronym?  These questions will help in any situation! 
Try to T-H-I-N-K before you speak!

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

I Am Responsible!

"I am responsible. Although I may not be able to prevent the worst from happening, I am responsible for my attitude toward the inevitable misfortunes that darken life. Bad things do happen; how I respond to them defines my character and the quality of my life. I can choose to sit in perpetual sadness, immobilized by the gravity of my loss, or I can choose to rise from the pain and treasure the most precious gift I have - life itself."

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Monday, December 3, 2012

Be Kind ...

You are not alone.  Cancer is most likely the biggest battle you'll ever have to face.  There will be days when you'll feel as if you are the only one who is struggling.  Need a reality check?  Just think about the statement listed above.  Unemployment.  Divorce. Loss of a loved one.  Debt.  Everyone has one challenge or another that they are dealing with.  Kindness is the common thread that we can share with each other to keep us motivated and give us the strength we need to continue on our journeys.

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Dr Wayne Dyer ~ Using Thoughts to Create Health

I LOVE Dr. Wayne Dyer!  This is a good video and helps to put things into perspective ... ENJOY!

Saturday, December 1, 2012

Love Your Body...

This whole cancer thing threw me for a loop.  Not only was I dealing with the "normal" day-to-day illness, feelings, worries that accompany it, I saw the toll the cancer meds had taken on my body.  I used to think I was kinda cute-ish!  Suddenly, I didn't recognize the person staring back at me in the mirror.  My body betrayed me.  I experienced a true identity crisis.  Add my divorce after 24 years of marriage to the mix and I was really at a low point.  My broken heart matched my exterior.  I avoided cameras and used to get mad at Kathleen for insisting on taking my pictures during holidays.  They only confirmed how I felt inside.

Then, as I started to wean off of one of my treatment meds, I slowly began to see glimpses of the "old me."  A few months ago, I went to lunch with my photographer friend, Jackie.  Halfway through the meal, she excused herself and returned to the table with her camera and lenses.  She saw a "light" in me that I could not see.  She snapped photo after photo and I loosened up and allowed myself to pose .. to be funny ... to try to re-discover myself.  Jackie gave me such a wonderful gift and I am forever grateful for her love and friendhsip.  My profile picture on this blog was done on that day and she is going to take my picture again for the "Author" page on my book.  Thank you so much, Jackie for helping me to love and embrace myself again!  (And, thanks to Kathleen for documenting the yucky pictures that I can now add to my book!)
Please go to Jackie's website to see her works of art ... http:/
She is one amazing woman!