Friday, August 31, 2012

BREATHE ...

"Our minds become magnetized with the dominating thoughts we hold in our minds, and these magnets attract to us the forces, the people, the circumstances of life which harmonize with the nature of our dominating thoughts." ~ Napoleon Hill
I've been working hard, trying to finish up my manuscript, Living La Vida (Lymphoma), as well as re-vamping this blog. Recently, I've become increasingly fatigued. Some of the symtoms that plagued me early on in my diagnosis started to manifest. It's been both frightening and frustrating and fear set in. Yesterday afternoon, I stopped the editing process to rest. I lit some candles and some Nag Champa incense and meditated for a while. I had an epihany of sorts. All of the re-editing and re-designing had forced me to go back "there." I had to relive each moment of pain and every raw emotion as if it were happening all over again. Like a horrible t.v. sitcom. Suddenly, I realized that all of these bad memories were bubbling up at the surface, causing me to feel everything. Opening up old wounds that I had pushed aside. Although I still feel fatigued, my spirit feels much lighter today in this realization. I have two choices. I can either put this manuscript aside and forget about it, or, I can continue pushing through to see to it's completion. I choose the second option. I have a story to tell. Take time to relax and breathe over this long weekend.

4 comments:

  1. Yes, writing can be therapeutic...but therapy can be painful before it's gainful! Keep persevering, Jodi, with regular breaks to recharge and destress. A wonderful reminder for anyone dealing with adversity.
    -Mysia

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  2. Hey Jodi - Good article. If you are interested in having more personal insights and more release on this manifestation, I would love to show you an Avatar Course technique! Let's do coffee and play.
    Today at the writers workshop, It was a delight to look to my left to see you giggle and play! I actually get why people say "cancer was the best thing that ever happened to them." You are in service to the world by sharing your experience.

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    1. Thanks, Jody! Would love to meet you ... coffee for you and tea for me!

      Believe it or not, I have ALWAYS been a big kid at heart ... cancer did make me act even more child-like (if that's possible!)

      Give me a call! Thanks again ...

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