Monday, December 31, 2012

A Look Back....


      As 2012 comes to a close, it is a time for reflection.  As a cancer patient, you may be riddled with thoughts of the past few months or years and wonder what the future holds.  I've spoken with many survivors who suffer from "anniversary" post traumatic stress syndrome. I am one of them.  When certain months roll around, my mind plays tricks on me and "reminds" me of what took place during those times.  It is stressful, but it helps to know I'm not alone - misery loves company!
As you will read in my book, there were other events that took place around the time of my diagnosis.  When I look back, I honestly don't know how I survived those troubling times.  They say, "Time heals all wounds" and, in a way, it has.  Do I still have the monkey brain thoughts and emotions play out?  Yes, sometimes I do.  But.....
We are all survivors on our own paths with the commonality of cancer.  It won't be an easy road, but we have to keep forging ahead.  Hopefully someday we'll be able to look back and say, "WOW!  I've come a loooong way and look at me now!"  That is my wish for us all in 2013!
Sending you lots of love,  peace, strength and light!

Sunday, December 30, 2012

Sleep? Who needs sleep?

One of my treatment meds is Prednisone.  I've been on it since August 2009.  It has caused me to have MAJOR insomnia ever since.  Most mornings I am up between 3-5 a.m. without the alarm and I am plagued with restless sleep all night.  Although I am sleep deprived, I am still Little Miss Sunshine as soon as I rise!  I hope that someday I will be able to sleep in like a "normal" person if I want to!
Any other insomniacs out there??? If so, what do you do to try to alleviate it? 

Saturday, December 29, 2012

Experience Life -

 We gain strength and courage and  confidence by each experience in which we really stop to look fear in the face ... we must do that which we think we cannot. ~ Eleanor Rossevelt

Friday, December 28, 2012

Comments, Please! I want to know...

What are your goals, hopes and dreams for 2013?


My friends are the BEST a girl could ever ask for!  I would've never made it through this far without their love and support and I want to say,

Thursday, December 27, 2012

Deepak Chopra : Physical Healing, Emotional Wellbeing

Deepak is another one of my favorite authors / lecturers.  Listen to his message and take it all in!

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Yule Log

Merry Christmas!  A day filled with joy and love and peace ... that is my wish for you! Enjoy!

Sunday, December 23, 2012

I Hate Christmas Cookies

I TOTALLY agree with this! Being an early childhood educator turned me into a
bit of a germ-a-phobe!

Friday, December 21, 2012

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

LOVE this!

Dr. Wayne Dyer is my favorite motivator / friend in my head, and this is one of my favorite quotes from him.  As you know, he was diagnosed with Leukemia a few years ago but he has maintained his philosophy and positive outlook on life.  He holds true to his beliefs and it has gotten him through. 
 That is what I have chosen to do, too!

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Monday, December 17, 2012

Courage ...

No one taught us how to be cancer patients or how to live with pain, weakness, fatigue.  There may be days when you don't feel like being "courageous."  There were times when I found myself feeling "guilty" for not being able to carry on the routines of the daily life that I once knew.  Guilty?  For what?  I was no longer in control of my body and I had to learn how to listen to it's subtle to demanding cues.  Each day brings forth another chance to begin again.  Don't be harsh on yourself.  Now is the time to allow your body, mind and spirit to heal - there's always tomorrow, beloveds!

Sunday, December 16, 2012

Another Fav Charity of Mine is ...

They provide hairpieces for children who have lost their hair due to a medical condition called alopecia areata.  Please click on the link to their website to learn how you can help:
I have donated my hair several times.  This is such an awesome organization!
Here was my hair donation from 2011!

Saturday, December 15, 2012

Friday, December 14, 2012

Be inspired ...

Do you have a dream?  Don't let your diagnosis stop you from being inspired and following your dreams.

If you can't think of a specific goal right now, take time to meditate and pray and listen to what Spirit is telling you.

You can do anything you set your mind to - I am living proof of that.  Cancer has made me realize what I need to do to lead the authentic life I was meant to live.  I am a blogger and a writer and I'm making my dreams come true. 

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

A Shout Out!

I want to give a humongous thank you and hug to Liz, moderator of  Hope For Lymphoma for allowing me to get the word out about T-cell Lymphoma yesterday!  And, thanks to all who welcomed me and participated throughout the day!  YOU inspire me!!!
M-M-M-W-W-W-A-A-A-A!!!  Thanks for everything!

All I want For Christmas...

Saw this and laughed my arse off!  Now if only Santa COULD get it right!  (Wishful thinking!)
Enjoy your day!

Tuesday, December 11, 2012


I am so honored to be the Guest Editor today on Hope For Lymphoma's FaceBook page! 
Here's their link:
Hope For Lymphoma offers a wealth of information and resources to others.
Please follow me throughout the rest-of-the-day and into the night!
The love is there....

Calm Yourself...

In the craziness leading up to the holidays, it is so important to take time to sit and "be."  After my many life changes from the past few years, I have shifted my thinking and way of doing things.

In my "old" life, I thrived on the chaos of the holiday season.  My brother, Bobby and I and our friends would get up before dawn to head out on Black Friday for all of the sales.  Back then, it was who I was.  I got sucked into the hunt for the bargains! 

When my brother passed away in 2002, he took with him my zest for shopping sprees.  I forced myself to go that year and realized why they call it Black Friday.  I went to a big department store in search of a special Bat Mobile my nephew wanted.  A huge crowd had assembled in the toy department and we were told by the store clerks that the Bat Mobiles were in the storage room waiting to be brought out. I stood there with the rest of the people for at least a half hour.  Despite the wait, I remained calm and smiled at whoever looked my way.  I chatted with a sweet eighteen year old college student who was there to buy her little brother's present.  People began to grumble and voice their "opinions" and the vibes in the toy department changed.  Suddenly, the sales clerks wheeled out two pallets filled with Bat Mobiles and then it got U-G-L-Y!!!  The crowd turned into an angry mob and rushed all at once, practically knocking each other down.  I saw mothers hoarding armfuls of Bat Mobiles, on the verge of  beating each other up to get what they came for.  I just hung back and decided that I was not going to get caught up in that mess.  After the crowd moved on, if any Bat mobile's remained, THEN I would get one. 

The mob cleared and all the cars were gone.  I told myself that it was a lesson learned.  The thrill of the hunt was over and it would be my LAST Black Friday shopping experience.  Just as I started to push my cart away, someone tapped me on my shoulder.  It was the college student, who handed me a Bat Mobile!  She went "in for the kill" and wanted to get one for me, too because I had been so nice to her.  That, my dears, is what the holidays are all about.  Remaining calm in the midst of the hoopla and holding onto your ideals and morals and to remember the REAL "reason for the season."

So, with the days leading up to Christmas, take care of YOU!  Start a new holiday ritual and pamper yourself - afternoon tea - meditation or prayer - set aside time to read -  journal -  take a walk - soak in a hot bubble bath ... do whatever it takes to make your heart sing and give yourself permission to just BE!

Monday, December 10, 2012

Whatever ...!

Wouldn't it be nice to be able to look into a crystal ball to see what lies ahead?  Regardless of our circumstances, healthy or not, no one knows what the future holds.  Sooooo, dear ones, love like you've never loved, dance, laugh, travel - do whatever it takes to make your heart sing!  Life is too short!  Live it!

Sunday, December 9, 2012

Passing Through...

Have a restful Sunday ...
"With the new day comes new strength and new thoughts."
-- Eleanor Roosevelt

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Don't Give Up -

There are some of you out there who are struggling on a day-to-day basis with this thing called cancer.  It is not an easy road at times but I promise you this - just like any challenge in life, there WILL be brighter days.  It is hard to see a future when you are facing the biggest struggle of your life, but I want you to know, it WILL get better.  Just hang in there and know that you have someone here - me, your fellow readers, care-givers, supporters - we are united in the hopes and prayers for a better life for you. 
I am asking that anyone who is reading this right now, to please say a prayer for those who need to be swaddled in love today.  May they gain the strength and courage that they'll need to carry on in their journey and gain hope for the life that they are destined to live. 
Peace and love and light to you all~

Friday, December 7, 2012

Just Think!

Isn't this a great acronym?  These questions will help in any situation! 
Try to T-H-I-N-K before you speak!

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

I Am Responsible!

"I am responsible. Although I may not be able to prevent the worst from happening, I am responsible for my attitude toward the inevitable misfortunes that darken life. Bad things do happen; how I respond to them defines my character and the quality of my life. I can choose to sit in perpetual sadness, immobilized by the gravity of my loss, or I can choose to rise from the pain and treasure the most precious gift I have - life itself."

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Monday, December 3, 2012

Be Kind ...

You are not alone.  Cancer is most likely the biggest battle you'll ever have to face.  There will be days when you'll feel as if you are the only one who is struggling.  Need a reality check?  Just think about the statement listed above.  Unemployment.  Divorce. Loss of a loved one.  Debt.  Everyone has one challenge or another that they are dealing with.  Kindness is the common thread that we can share with each other to keep us motivated and give us the strength we need to continue on our journeys.

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Dr Wayne Dyer ~ Using Thoughts to Create Health

I LOVE Dr. Wayne Dyer!  This is a good video and helps to put things into perspective ... ENJOY!

Saturday, December 1, 2012

Love Your Body...

This whole cancer thing threw me for a loop.  Not only was I dealing with the "normal" day-to-day illness, feelings, worries that accompany it, I saw the toll the cancer meds had taken on my body.  I used to think I was kinda cute-ish!  Suddenly, I didn't recognize the person staring back at me in the mirror.  My body betrayed me.  I experienced a true identity crisis.  Add my divorce after 24 years of marriage to the mix and I was really at a low point.  My broken heart matched my exterior.  I avoided cameras and used to get mad at Kathleen for insisting on taking my pictures during holidays.  They only confirmed how I felt inside.

Then, as I started to wean off of one of my treatment meds, I slowly began to see glimpses of the "old me."  A few months ago, I went to lunch with my photographer friend, Jackie.  Halfway through the meal, she excused herself and returned to the table with her camera and lenses.  She saw a "light" in me that I could not see.  She snapped photo after photo and I loosened up and allowed myself to pose .. to be funny ... to try to re-discover myself.  Jackie gave me such a wonderful gift and I am forever grateful for her love and friendhsip.  My profile picture on this blog was done on that day and she is going to take my picture again for the "Author" page on my book.  Thank you so much, Jackie for helping me to love and embrace myself again!  (And, thanks to Kathleen for documenting the yucky pictures that I can now add to my book!)
Please go to Jackie's website to see her works of art ... http:/
She is one amazing woman!

Friday, November 30, 2012

Blessings ...

Love this quote by good ol' Willie!  I totally know this to be true.  When I focus on what I DO have in my life, I am on a "spiritual roll!"  Things start to come together.  Opportunities arise.  People come into my life that are important to me as a friend or "life path associate."  I learned to not control the process - letting go and allowing life to unfold before me in all it's glory is what its all about!

Thursday, November 29, 2012


I have discussed the importance of purposeful breathing before.  Whenever you feel as if you are in a place of frustration, anger, worry, STOP!  Take a few moments to either go for a walk or sit in a quiet place for a while to re-group.  Take some deep cleansing breaths and ezhale the tension away.  I do this at night when I am troubled by a bad case of "monkey brain" - I focus on my breathing and when I feel calm return to me, I recall happier times and it helps me to remember that I AM okay.  I can control my thoughts and feelings. 
Give it a try and B-R-E-A-T-H-E, Grasshoppas!

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Wouldn't It Be Lover-ly?

I have an experiment for you to try today.  As you go about your day, think L-O-V-E!!!  Say kind words to your loved ones and eople you meet during your day.  Share compliments.  Look for others who appear to be down-in-the-dumps and offer them a hug or a kind word.  See what happens!  Betcha YOU will reap the rewards of being a little messenger of love!

Enjoy your day!

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Good For Your Soul -

I can laugh at anything!  Sometimes I get carried away, but at least I know how to have fun.

One thing I learned after my diagnosis, was the importance of rest.  I am on Prednisone and it does not make for good sleep.  At first, I was a virtual Prednisone zombie due to the high doses I was on.  After dealing with this for at least the first four months, I decided to give myself "permission" to rest, even if it meant in the middle of the day.  It was hard for me to unwind but I began with baby steps of telling myself I would only lay down to read a book or magazine.  My big old hound dog, Dudley, would join me on the bed and eventually I trained myself to take a nap every day at 1 P.M..  There were some times when I would forget and Dudley was always there to remind me!  Even though it was never a whole night's worth of sleep, it ended up being the restorative rest that I needed.  When I am feeling run down, I still take a power nap as my night time sleeping habits are still really bad due to my insomnia.  So, if you need a boost, allow yourself to take a nappie poo - you deserve it!  And, keep on laughing!

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Calling All Angels -

Do you believe in angels? I do. I've had many experiences over my lifetime that have convinced me that I have been guided by angels in my times of need. You will read of a few of these incidents in my book.

In January of 2002, when my brother Bobby was in the final days before his death, I frantically worked to organize his memorial service. Anyone who has been through this knows how hard it can be. Not only are you dealing with the inevitable loss, the heart-wrenching emotions, you must get through it. When the movie, Pay It Forward came out, he had mentioned to me how much he loved the song, Calling All Angels that was played at the end of the movie. So, remembering this, I contacted, Jane Siberry who sang this beautiful piece and let her know that I was planning on using her song for his memorial service. She ended up being one of Bobby's and my special angels. We played the song at the funeral and everyone felt the love and reverance behind the words. I will never forget Jane's kindness and I am sharing her video here for you to listen to:

Then, when I was still waiting to see what my final diagnosis was in 2009, I reached another low point.  I was in limbo.  I was going through a divorce.  I was at an all-time low health-wise.  Add a chronic case of insomnia and I was literally a walking zombie.  One morning at 3:00 A.M. (when I do my best thinking!), I began to cry.  Prior to this, I had been stoic and on a mission to survive.  Finally, it all came to a head and I let loose with these heart-wrenching sobs, my whole body shook with their enormity.  I let it all out and cried for what seemed like at least a half hour until I could cry no more.  Exhausted, I laid my head back down on my tear drenched pillow and closed my eyes.  I fell into a deep sleep.  Then, I heard this soft, soothing whisper of a woman's voice in my ear ... "Joooodi...." I opened my eyes and thought I must've been dreaming.  I closed my eyes and within a matter of seconds, I heard the voice calling  my name again -  this time, I knew it was not a dream.  The energy in the room changed from one of darkness to one of beautiful light.  A peaceful calm took over and I knew that, no matter what, I was being watched over by my guardian angel. Whenever I feel "scattered in thought," I remember that morning when I was touched by an angel and it soothes my heart and soul.

Saturday, November 24, 2012

The Wisdom of Pooh ...

I love Winnie-The-Pooh!  I may be fifty years old, but I still love that silly, old bear!  When I saw this quote, it resonated with me and I hope you will take in the message, too.
Oh, bother!  Have a great day!

Friday, November 23, 2012

Thank you!

I'd like to take some time today to thank all of my Angels who have kept me going.  To my doctors and all of the support staff at the hospitals and medical facilities that I have been treated at. To my friends who remain on Team Jodi.  To my spiritual family at CSL.  To anyone who has ever said a prayer for me that did so unselfishly, maybe without even knowing me personally.  To strangers who may have smiled or shared a few kind words on days that I needed them the most.  Now is MY time to give back - through this blog and through my book, I hope  to inspire others on their journeys.  That is what this life is about.  A sharing of love and peace and light. Thank you for being there for me. I love and cherish you all!

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Happy Thanksgiving!

Wishing you and yours a happy day.  Take time to count your blessings - I am counting mine!
If you have a moment, please let us know what you are thankful for by posting a comment (or two!)

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Someday ...

This message is a good piggy-back to yesterday's post.  I have said it before.  Let go of anger.  The past.  Forgive and move on.  (For more tips on forgiveness, please see the archived post I wrote on 11.3.12.)  Harboring past hurts hurts no one but yourself.  You become a prisoner to the past and, I can almost guarantee that the perpetrator has gone on with his or her life unscathed.


YOU are the most important beloved being on the planet!  The old adage of, "You are only hurting yourself" is true. Choose to be happy.

Your emotional and physical health is most important right now and you cannot heal if you are holding onto unhealthy emotions.  Release them and let them go.

You deserve nothing but the best in your life and that is my wish for you, too!  The love is there ...

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

You Never Know ...

Never underestimate the power of your soul.  Your free will.  Your strength.  Something I've discovered over the past few years, is this ... learn to listen to what I like to call, your internal G.P.S. system. And, don't pose the question. "Why me?" 
I fell into that trap at one point after my diagnosis. I was able to let go and understand that this thing, this life, is not ours to control.  Sometimes you may say, "But, God, why am I going through this?  I cannot take it anymore!"  It is during these bleakest of times, that I haveforced myself to allow life to simply unfold.  We are not being "tested" as some may think.  Its just a simple fact of life. There will be peaks and valleys and we all must go through them.  It is how we decide to react to these challenges. You'll gain knowledge and strength that you never knew you ever had before.  Your life is not yours to "control."

I promise that, if you shift your thinking and grasp this concept, you'll be rewarded with many wonderful opportunities and gifts along the way.  You will discover your real purpose in life if you listen.  Then, you'll be able to look back and see just how far you've come.  The pain and suffering will be distant memories.

Monday, November 19, 2012

Who Are You?



HAPPY MONDAY! I wanted to start your Monday off with one of my favorite old school songs that carries a great message ... if you want, click on the video and then continue to read as you listen!


I am a star gazer.  I love to stand in the middle of my yard and stare up into the evening sky.  Whenever there is mention of an up-an-coming meteor shower, count me in!  I'm there front and center.  Looking at the stars puts things into perspective for me.  Although I am just a tiny little star sitting in my backyard, I feel the connection to the universe and I realize that I am shining as brightly as the stars in the sky. So, SHINE ON, my little stars now that you have danced and sang and are prepared to start another day ... make it a good one and know you are a beloved child of the World!

Sunday, November 18, 2012


Happy Sunday!  This note says it all ... its a good reminder for how to spend your Sunday.  Do something that helps you relax. 

My Sundays are a great time for me to chill out.  I attend weekly service.  I try not to go on the computer or write for the whole day.  I go to Kathleen's for family dinner and bring Rose so she can play with her "doggie - cousin," Gus.  Now that the weather is cooler, we spend more time on the porch taking in the sights and sounds of the countryside.  It is the perfect way to end the week and prepare for a new one.  So, realize that you are enough, have enough and do enough and allow yourself to unwind!  Enjoy a day of leisure ...

Saturday, November 17, 2012

I Wish -

I am not going to lie.  There will be many dark days along your journey.  Pain.  Tears.  Frustration.  Dispair.

One thing you must remember, is the light that eminates from your soul.  Even in darkness, there is light.  When you are having a day where you feel as if you are ready to give in or give up your fight, please stop those thoughts.  Take time to deal with those feelings.  Let them in.  Cry or get angry if you have to.  But, then re-group and  remember your light.  You are someone's child.  Parent.  Grandparent.  Aunt or Uncle. Brother or Sister.  Friend.  YOU ARE LOVED!  You WILL get through this, I PROMISE!  My wish for you is that you'll realize you're never alone.  You are a bright light that needs to keep on shining.  Love you ...

Friday, November 16, 2012

Worst of Times ...

I've said this before but it is always good to be reminded of this notion.  I know that everything I've been through has been a lesson learned.  A leap of faith.  A chance to grow.  More strength or knowledge to gain.  Once we learn to master this thinking, it'll enable us to live our authentic lives.  Cancer is not the end all.  It can be the beginning if you listen to your thoughts and your heart. 
That is my wish for you!

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Flow -

Like a gentle stream, let your thoughts and feelings flow.  Take some time to process them.  Hold onto the ones that are meaningful and will help you.  Release those that do not serve your higher purpose.

Let go and stay centered in the knowingness that you are exactly where you need to be.  You are safe.  You are loved.  Enjoy your day!

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Prayer Request ...

I am asking my readers to please send out some prayers for Danna today.  She is newly diagnosed with Lymphoma, is going for a second opinion today and will start chemo soon.  Danna is a loving, bubbly and positive light in so many other's lives in her role as a nurse.  Keep her in your thoughts and prayers for the right doctors and medical treatments that she needs to assist in her healing. 
Danna, we're sending you lots of love & light today!

The Gift of Life -

One thing that has disturbed me since my diagnosis is the fact that I can no longer be an organ donor.  I know it sounds morbid, but it was something that I always wanted to do.  I have one friend who had a liver transplant back in the 80's who has lived a full life ever since.  Author Steven Kerry Brown, another friend of mine,  had an aggressive leukemia, underwent a bone marrow transplant in June and started a blog.
You can read about his journey at . 
 He is the bravest person I know! 
Even though my blood and organs are considered unacceptable, I will still be an advocate for organ and bone marrow donations.  If you'd like to find out more about becoming a donor, please visit
Become an organ or bone marrow donor today -
you'll help to save many lives!

Monday, November 12, 2012

Chances ...

The dawn of each day brings us many possibilities!  I am blessed to have my friends and faithful readers who have helped me stay on my path.  As you know, things do not always go as "planned."  I write about this in my book.  But, I will tell you one thing.  Once I gave up my preconceived notions of how my future was going to be, I have allowed myself to be open and ready for the good things that will come to me.  I am so very thankful and blessed to have you along for the ride!

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Miracles ...

Good Sunday morning to you! Do you believe in miracles?  I do - otherwise I wouldn't be here.  Set aside some time today to sit alone.  Relax.  Breathe.  Take in your surroundings.  Notice the beauty around you.  Listen to your environment.  Your thoughts.  What your soul is saying.  Close your eyes and meditate. Pray.
Be thankful for the miracle of yet another day - 
YOU are a walking, talking, beautiful, breathing miracle! 
Have a peaceful Sunday... 

Saturday, November 10, 2012

Be Yourself ...

LOVE this! Try to focus on each one of these statements and then visualize yourself BELIEVING them. Learn to love who you are, flaws and all.  You are one wonderful being who deserves to love YOU!
Have a great day!
P.S.- I am sending out a special hug to my friend, Janice who called me last night to tell me she was leaving to go and do the Light The Night Walk and was thinking about me ... LOVE YOU, GIRLFRIEND!

Friday, November 9, 2012

No One -

One of my favorite quotes is, "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." (Eleanor Roosevelt)

After I decided to stop teaching, I went on a massive job hunt.  Teaching was basically all I knew.  I had some office skills.  I am a real "people person" so I looked for jobs that were different but within my "likes."  One day I saw an ad in the classifieds for a Veterinary clinic receptionist so I emailed them.  I love animals and knew I'd be a perfect match.  I received a quick response from the Vet, asking if I could come in for an interview the next day.  At the end of her signature on the email, was MY quote so I took that as a good sign and agreed to meet her at the specified time.

The following day, I got dressed in my finest business attire and drove in bumper-to-bumper traffic, worried that I wouldn't make it in time.  Let me stop here to tell you more details - it was in the middle of a south Florida summer.  Ninety-nine degrees.  My car was a 1986 Lincoln Town Car.  Crushed velvet seats.  No A / C.  And, the only power window that went down was on the driver's side and it only went down half way.  I ended up arriving for my interview 15 minutes ahead of schedule and not wanting to look like a complete doofus, I waited in my car.

I leafed through my resume.  Tried to collect my thoughts.  Then beads of sweat began to fall from my face.  I grabbed the old purse that I hadn't used in years to find a tissue to blot my sweat.  OMG!  Old nail files. Old chewing gum.  Three tubes of lipstick, but not one freakin' tissue in sight!  I was frantic - there was no way I could go in there looking like a dripping mess.  I reached my hand back into my purse and, VOILA!  I found one lone, still-wrapped-in-plastic maxi pad!  Suddenly I became the female McGuyver and blotted all of my "mistiness" away.  In a flash, I was looking fresh and clean.

The Vet was over thirty minutes late due to an emergency and she was not what I had expected.  She was as short as me.  Russian accent.  And did not have a good bedside manner, for humans let alone pets.  It was apparent that she didn't have respect for her staff and when she offered me eight dollars an hour, I about fell off my chair.  When I told her that salary was not what I was searching for, she berated me by asking what I expected since I was inexperienced. I thanked her for her time and left. I walked back to my clunker, blotted my brow with my pad and chalked it all up to a bad experience. Eleanor was right.

So, don't EVER allow someone to mistreat you.  Don't feel as if you are "trapped" in a job or situation where others are not on the same page as you.  YOU are the most important person and need to be treated as such!  Walk away and step into a better life ...